life on hold

Some days are so blissful, peaceful and wonderful and then some days are restless and doubt-filled and hard. And through no fault of my child, today was the later. O was a great kid today. No tantrums of merit, no demands, just his normal sweet self. Me, I am just feeling like my actual life is on hold right now. But this is my actual life. I know my career is on hold and in some ways there are so many things that have also been suspended: sleep, dating my husband, hikes, bikes, dinners, vacations, being a two-income family. Needless to say, I think I need a cocktail...